Could I be going insane? For some reason I feel that I have been losing my grip on sanity for a while. Some days I forget my meds, and I think about things that sometimes worries me. Usually, I'm up at the late hours of the night, and I feel depressed for no reason that I can think of. Usually, when I'm depressed, I seem to be absent of a lot of thought. Ah, it's even less than brooding. My mind seems to... freeze. I feel small, insignificant, hopeless... I don't feel alone right now, but I think that I will be alone in the future. I have this vision of myself alone, sad, and out of options before the age of 30. It scares me how real that future seems to me. I say to myself that I'm going to change that, but is wanting to change it admitting that it's going to happen? It's probably just time for me to seize the day, and make life worth living right now. I mean, that's all I can really do at the moment, right?